Well, people often seem to wish for themselves as a muse , a muse to be written about , a muse for whom someone would yearn ,a muse whose presence would be desired for ,a muse for whom one would burn. A someone who would feel blessed to breathe the same air as them, a someone who would laud their beauty in metaphors, a someone who would drape them in pearls and gems .They want to feel loved.They want to feel alive. They want to feel included , just enough to hide : hide the sorrows within them,hide the estrangement sewn in, hide the burning inside, hide it deep , hide it wide…
MUSE
It is so much more fullfilling to find someone who is that kind of muse to you.
I don't know why life decided that i deserve it, but i was lucky enough to actually find that person in this life.
The whole idea of a twin soul seemed really like "new age meets romeo and juliet" to me,
Wishfull delusions of pubescent girls.
Then i met the very person i would not even have dared to believe exists at all.
We both felt and still feel the same way about each other. The bitter sweet reality is that nothing in this life prepares you for that. We eventually had to go our own ways again. The love was such an intense vibration, it would have torn us into shreds.
But that encounter was enough to make us both complete. We are still close, actually we are in a sense one, it's hard to tell where i end and she begins. We had both a lot of wounds from previous love relationships that we healed in each other.
To love someone that much makes you very vulnerable. Our mistake was to hide from a world that had put us through so much suffering. Why put up with that when we had each other?
Reality let's you have that moment for a while, but it will rip you out of that dream with cold and indifferent hands eventually and that's how it should be.
We are here to live and not dissolve in comfort.
I'm so grateful for that, trying to express it would be pointless.
No matter what amount of pain life has put me through since or what still is ahead, there is nothing that could ever harm my heart now, nothing that could ever make me feel anything but thankful to be alive.
I know divine love and i have paradise inside my heart.